remember to breathe!♥
Friday, July 31, 2009
I kept thinking why is this happening to me
& why must i be here & why must this be it?
I have found my answer!
Because I'm simply too lucky!
Too lucky to have such great parents.
One that puts you first,
One that try to fulfill your wishes without the use of money
but with the use of love and concern.
One that waits for you to go home so that they can love you more.
One that cares about you more than anything in the world.
Too lucky to have such great friends!
Those who are always there when you need them,
Those that are willing to share the world with you
Those that tell you everything first
Those that wipe your tears away
Those that cover you when you don't want to seen.
Those that make you laugh all the way to dawn.
Those that are willing to tell you the truth.
Those that carry your deepest secrets to their grave.
Too lucky to have such great siblings!
Those that hear what you have to say
Those that will sacrifice their time to listen
Those that provide the best solution there is
Those that comfort you no matter the distance
Those that try their best to carry love to you no matter how far away.
Too lucky to have so many great people in my life!
Last but not least,
Too lucky to have the chance to travel half way around the world...
To give me a chance to pursue my dream.
The chance to give me the best environment available
The chance for me to experience something totally different
So! Nothing can make me think I'm unlucky right now!
Nothing can make me too upset to forget this!
No one can irritate me that much to think I'm unlucky!A special shout out to those that I love♥
August
Thursday, July 23, 2009
How many kinds of Emotions are there?
Anger
Happiness
Jealousy
Romance
Envy
Cheerful
Fear
Frustration
Joy
Sorrow
Hate
Detest...
So many emotions and how many of them can you feel at once?
And these emotions are not all of them!
Which describes your life the most?
For me my mood now is between detest and frustration...
August
Screw up Someone's life is so fun!
You should try it too! (:
Here are some examples!:
ALERT!: Only Some People Will Understand!
JO~ Mojojojo!
AN~teater!
AD~d some fun!
MA(mu)~st be fun!
Still got some pending haha!
Maybe...
ED~ucation
hmm... still have?
Have! A LOT! But can't think now haha!
I'll post more when i remember!
Shu Xian don't angry la!
I'm just screwing your life up LOL!
TATA!Little Devil
August
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Damn pissed
This World is so Unfair
Got framed for smt i didn't do
Got scolded for no freaking reason
Everything becomes my fault
And I know I'm not in the wrong.
My friend also suffered today
Sorta got framed for smt she didn't do too
She had to pay the price and so did I
Why must we be such nice people and suffer in Silence?
One day We'll make all these worth while.
You think I'm just not hardworking
But how bout you?
I can probably make you pay
But I won't...
I'm not gonna make that mistake
Pissed
August
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Can't Eat
Can't Sleep
Can't Smile when alone
Can't Stop Worrying
Can't Stop Tears from falling
Can't Stop My heart from racing
Can't Control my breathing
Can't seem to believe
Can't seem to relax
Can't stop sighing
Can't Stop Counting
Can't Stop My Imagination From Running Wild
So many Can't (s), But how many Can (s) ?
August
Sunday, July 12, 2009
最近的心情越来越沉重
当时间慢慢的流失时，
考试的日子也慢慢的逼近
心中的恐惧也慢慢的扩大
心里就像在热锅上的蚂蚁一样。。。
那么的躁急，那么的无助。。。
没有人能够体会我的心情。。。
没有人会比我更躁急。。。
我背负的不只是父母的期望。。。
也是自己的欲望，
欲望能够和哥哥与姐姐一起努力，
欲望能够让父母感到骄傲。。。
能够让他们以我为荣。
每一次想起考试，
就会不自觉的怀疑自己到底有没有能力让父母以我为荣，
自己到底有没有能力不让父母失望，
到底有没有能力跟得上哥哥和姐姐。
我不应该抱怨，
不应该不自足。。。
姐姐也叫我一定要有信心，
但我不能够控制自己的心情。
不能够不怀疑自己的能力，
不能够相信自己做得到。
更不能相信自己和哥哥姐姐一样聪明，伶俐。
而且。。。申请学校所用的并不是国考的成绩。。。
而是末考的成绩。。。
这样，我的时间又减少了多少？
那么我剩下准备的时间又有多少？
能够和朋友相处的时间又有多少？
能够放轻松的时间又有多少？
现在的我充满了问号。。。
那么多的问题。。。
却没有一个人知道他们的答案。
那么多无答案的问题。
该这么办呢？
现在对我而言连空气都太沉重了，
让我无法呼吸，
无法喘气。
想象这种心情每天跟随着你，
每天每天提醒着你别人对你的期待，
这就是我的心情。。。
自卑的女孩
August
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
Yesterday went to Marina Square to celebrate Shu Xian Birthday!
Actually was suppose to have other people but... oh well!
Who cares! We still had fun haha!
Shu Xian and I met up first
Then Mark came along and last Jwei!
Shu Xian and I waste damn a lot of time!
TRYING to figuring the freaking place out!haha!
There was like 4 parts to it!
And the Entertainment place was called 'Groove Nation' LOL!
Funny name!
Anyways! We went to eat at Jack's place!
Shu Xian was damn funny!
She couldn't cut a half spring Chicken haha!
But oh well! There WAS bones... so...
haha! it's expected of her haha!
And wth?! Before we actually decided where to eat!
We also walked really long before going to Jack's Place!
Their food was OK! Not excellently nice BUT ok! LOL!
And MAN! Me and Mark was such nice people that day!
We paid for Shu Xian's meal! haha! oh well!
HEY! That's what friend are for!
Not saying that friend are for paying your bills!
But makes you happy!:D
After That we went to the arcade!
Since it was Shu Xian's Birthday!
We went to play retarded games at first!
Then I watched them play Para Para! LOL!
It was damn funny! LOL!
Anyways! After Jwei joined us we went to play pool!
It was my first time playing!
I totally missed like damn a lot of times! LOL!
But! hey! beginner's luck! You know?
I was actually able to hit balls in haha!
I totally surprised myself haha!
It was damn fun! I shall play again sometime!:D
And damn I'm so looking forward to Final Destination 4!
And it's out after my birthday! THEN! yay! I can watch it! haha!games addict!:D
August
Friday, July 03, 2009
Someone freaking help me!
I'm being irritated to a point of breakdown!
I really can't take it anymore!
I'm gonna go mad soon if this continues!
I can't say much here so perhaps it won't make any sense to any of you!
BUT I.CAN'T.TAKE.IT.ANYMORE!
I'm being driven up my wall!
There is no solution!
It's either I suffer or both suffer!
I.CAN'T.TAKE.IT.ANYMORE!
This is really too much!
Those words ' I can't take it anymore'
is like repeating themselves in my head
LIKE SOME KIND OF FREAKING STUCK RADIO!
Someone save me from this shit!
GRR! Can't freaking take this anymore!
I think i lost count of how many times this kinda shit happened to me!
Last year have, this year have!
What the heck have I freaking done wrong?!
ARGH! I can't say anything cause I'm too nice a person
I can't DON'T say anything cause I'll blow my head off!
I'm trying very very very very hard to not blow my top
and scream like a mad woman! girl!
I can't even count how many situations this has freaking happen before!
I HATE THIS KINDA THING!
Even more than people who act pro!
people who has high pitched voice!
and those who i just plainly hate!pissed off!
August
Thursday, July 02, 2009
HAHA! I have good news! AGAIN!
My phone is repaired!!! :D YAY!
And man... Nokia is a freaking 'scammer'!
I repaired my phone in Bedok for 70 bucks!
And! It turns out that the problem wasn't the botton haha!
That guy said it's the cable but...
how the heck would i know whether it's true or not!
But since he helped me repair my phone!:D
I'll give him the benefit of doubt ahah!
SEE! I'm such a nice person! YAY!
Now all i have to do is wait for my beloved earpiece
from my beloved sister!:D
YAY! And LOL! Today we played bridge like nobody's business!
Play damn a lot of games! haha!
It was so fun! Damn! I'm craving for it again! haha!
Even though Go Fish is fun! NOTHING can beat bridge man!
Except maybe damn a lot of people playing murderer
AND sitting in a circle!
That will be damn freaking fun!
try imagining like... 20?30? People sitting in a circle!
All looking around and suspense in the air!
Everyone thinking who is the murderer and will they be the next victim!
I love this kinda game! Suspense! they ROCK!BRIDGE!
August
Wednesday, July 01, 2009
So freaking retarded!
My phone can't on...
I'm freaking angry...
Cause what the heck's the use of having a new earpiece
when my phone spoil?
And bloody hell! The person at Nokia told me that...
Just by freaking repairing the freaking botton needs at least $125
What the heck is this? Some kind of scam?
Even changing another phone is way freaking cheaper!
But If i change it'll be a 2 year plan when
I'm most likely to leave like end of this year!
So freaking retarded!
And my mood hasn't been very good this few days...
Actually it's worse than not very good!
I'm easily irritated and getting more and
more irritated as the days pass by!
The first few days of school was shit!
Today the lessons was more or less like shit!
And my mood now is like shit!
My phone is freaking a piece of shit!
And now currently my life is also shit!
So there's only one word in my mind now and obviously it is : 'SHIT'!
Hate my life right now! Nothing is going on right!
Getting really good news but even worse news!
Bloody hell! If i calculate everything it's still worse and thus still shit!
SHIT!
SHIT!
SHIT!
SHIT!SHIT!
August
Take a small step back...
Walk a little slower...
Take a look around & You might just see that the life you're living now
is already the best that you'll ever wish to have♥
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